The Moon is in Venus...
And Sagien's head is in his ass.
A preface to the following madness:
In recent weeks, as friends are wont to do, Sagien and I, wombat, had been hanging out. Sagien, upset about his exgf becoming an eskimo, often called me or IMed me to express his depression and confusion on what he could do to remedy his constantly running mind. So, often, we were together, doing things friends do.
Then, late Sunday night, he IMs me to call me a "loser." Not in the way that friends do wherein it's serious but joking, but in only a serious and rather cruel way. He went as far as to leave a dreadful comment on my myspace profile. (Oh, no!) So, I wrote back, pointing out how he's never had a girlfriend (minus the dreaded Penny Ugly Pappas) that he didn't have to fly/drive halfway across the country to meet. A classic comeback in our rapport, and something that's usually filed under a gentle ribbing, or a jibe.
But, apparently, I was wrong, for he removed me from his myspace friends list, driving me into a stream of copius tears.
What follows is the very next conversation I had with Sagien...
Darth Sweetnesss: hey
knightpire: go away
Darth Sweetnesss: hahaha... youre fuckin pathetic, mike.
knightpire: im sorry jeff, so im pathetic
knightpire: im pathetic to not really wanna be associated with you
Darth Sweetnesss: yeah, because i did somethig to you.
Darth Sweetnesss: no, wait, i didnt.
knightpire: hmm
Darth Sweetnesss: youre just a fucking angry child.
knightpire: remember when i told you i wasnt going to be your friend in the same way before splendor again?
Darth Sweetnesss: you gotta start shit for no reason. because youre bored and pissed off.
knightpire: did you think that changed?
knightpire: bottom line is, i dont need your company anymore
Darth Sweetnesss: hahahaha... youre a fuckin joke.
knightpire: yeah
knightpire: im a joke
Darth Sweetnesss: you seriously are.
Darth Sweetnesss: block me. be a man, and block me, you nutless fuck. christ.
Darth Sweetnesss: fuckin internet bullshit.
Darth Sweetnesss: you seriously need to pull your head out of your ass.
knightpire: cuz blocking you makes me a man
Darth Sweetnesss: thats actually what i was implying.
knightpire: cuz I need to prove to you that I am a man
knightpire: wait
knightpire: you're an insignificant entity in this so called life
knightpire: you don't matter
Darth Sweetnesss: two weeks ago when you were fuckin depressed and miserable, i fuckin sat there and listened to you... remember that? and now that you you "have money" you can call the shots, and you chose to act like a fucking little girl.
Darth Sweetnesss: and over what?
Darth Sweetnesss: nothing.
knightpire: no jeff
Darth Sweetnesss: because youre a little bitch
Darth Sweetnesss: yes, nothing.
knightpire: right
Darth Sweetnesss: i didnt do a damn thing to you.
Darth Sweetnesss: youve got no balls.
knightpire: not recently no
Darth Sweetnesss: youre a cunt.
Darth Sweetnesss: oh, so, im supposed to believe that you just stopped caring for my company because of something over a year ago?
Darth Sweetnesss: youre a child.
Darth Sweetnesss: if thats the case, youre a fucking child.
Darth Sweetnesss: have fun with your money.
knightpire: jeff you rendered me homeless
knightpire: did you really think i'd forget about that?
Darth Sweetnesss: you honestly want me to believe thats whats bothering you right now?
knightpire: oh its not bothering me
knightpire: i just never forgot about it
Darth Sweetnesss: youre a fuckin woman.
Darth Sweetnesss: you seriously are.
knightpire: you're the one who cant stop IMing me over this shit
Darth Sweetnesss: im sorry. i wanna be your friend. you seem to think you dont "need" me anymore. tahts some cold shit, mike.
Darth Sweetnesss: you wanna drop me, gawhead... tahts your business. but, youre being a child.
knightpire: i don't want to be your friend.
Darth Sweetnesss: ok. then, dont.
knightpire: later
Darth Sweetnesss: uh huh.
Darth Sweetnesss: im not buyin it at all, mike.
Darth Sweetnesss: not at all.
knightpire: i dont give a shit
knightpire: stfu
Darth Sweetnesss: hahahaha.... why are you being so stupid?
Darth Sweetnesss: seriously, youre being a moron. you only look like a child saying youre holding a grudge when we've been hanging out for months.
Darth Sweetnesss: and isnt it just a coincidence that i laid into you last night about your history of meeting women. im sure that has nothing to do with it. no, itd be much too shameful to admit the truth about yourself. so, what do ya do? ya claim some bullshit falling out we had as a reason to blow me off. when, really, i pointed out how stupid youve been acting. and you couldnt handle it. so, hey, have fun, mike. call me when kris comes back and fucks you over again. you know why? because you know id fuckin be there to listen to you.
knightpire: wtf are you talking about?
knightpire: there is no "falling out"
knightpire: and i couldnt care less about how you think i live my life
knightpire: the fact of the matter is, you are a loser. You just continue to dig yourself into holes that you really have no desire to climb out of.
knightpire: And quite frankly, I don't want to be associated with people like that.
Darth Sweetnesss: mike, im not sure if youre aware of things, but... thats not really how one looks at "friends"... people go up and down, and shit happens... you dont blow someone off because they "dig themselves into holes"... christ. like your fuckin life has always been up. in fact, you were down last month. and i didnt say "sorry, mike, i dont neeed you"
knightpire: thats the thing
knightpire: your life is never up
Darth Sweetnesss: yeah. never.
Darth Sweetnesss: better blow me off, because i ask you too much.
Darth Sweetnesss: no, wait... i dont ask you for anything.
Darth Sweetnesss: sorry if companionship is too much of a burden for you
knightpire: its very clever use of sarcasm jeff
knightpire: proud of you
Darth Sweetnesss: hahaha... whatever, man. youve got no room to talk... you fucking high and mighty piece of shit... all of a sudden you got money, and everythings great... awesome mike. blow me off.
knightpire: k
Darth Sweetnesss: you are such a little girl. you have no idea how people really interact.
knightpire: none
Darth Sweetnesss: nope.
Darth Sweetnesss: your life revolves around meeting girls on MUD
Darth Sweetnesss: have you ever met a girl in real life?
Darth Sweetnesss: i dont think you hvae.
knightpire: gee, jeff if your opinion mattered to me on this subject, i'd answer that
Darth Sweetnesss: you know youre pathetic.
knightpire: very
knightpire: according to you, that is
knightpire: but
knightpire: hmm
Darth Sweetnesss: yeah, thats right... you have money now.
knightpire: lets look at you
Darth Sweetnesss: lets look at me.
Darth Sweetnesss: ive never written anyone off.
knightpire: nah, i dont give a shit
knightpire: no
Darth Sweetnesss: ive never asked my friends for help.
knightpire: but everyone seems to write you off alot
knightpire: but thats not your fault
Darth Sweetnesss: ive never unjustly and arbitrarily decided to write someone off for bullshit reasons
knightpire: theres nothing wrong with you
Darth Sweetnesss: theres plenty wrong with me.
knightpire: okay
Darth Sweetnesss: i hold no reservations abotu my shortcomings.
knightpire: okay
Darth Sweetnesss: do you?
knightpire: who cares
Darth Sweetnesss: it seems you like to think youre a big man here.
knightpire: i dont think anything
knightpire: ive already made my decision
knightpire: theres nothing left to think
Darth Sweetnesss: good man, mike.
Darth Sweetnesss: way to be.
Darth Sweetnesss: i hope whatever youre doing fails miserably and you can look back on this moment and see what a fucking douchebag you were to me... because, ive never done anything to you. writing me off because you dont want to associate with me... thats just fucking childish. you act like im a fucking dead beat because i got fired. well, fuck you. it happens. like my fucking job was all i had going for me.
Darth Sweetnesss: just to point out, the list of notoriously irrational people whove written me off (of whom youve joined the ranks) have always done to everyone, what youre doing to me right now. funny how our rational friends dont seem to just drop me when things are bad.
Darth Sweetnesss: just something to mull over while youre hold false anger against me as subterfuge for your own misery
knightpire: you should go into psychiatry
Darth Sweetnesss: so, hold on... two days ago, you call me because you want me to meet you at the Tun... and now... we're not friends... this is the case?
Darth Sweetnesss: just to clarify
knightpire: give it up
knightpire: please
Darth Sweetnesss: just answer
knightpire: no
knightpire: go away
Darth Sweetnesss: two days ago we were friends, and now...we're not
Darth Sweetnesss: just say thats the case.
knightpire: yeah, how incredible is that
knightpire: jeff, you of all people know I hold grudges.
knightpire: you were never really my friend
Darth Sweetnesss: hahaha... i hold grudges.
Darth Sweetnesss: against who?
Darth Sweetnesss: you got nothin, mike.
knightpire: no, i just dont feel like answering you
Darth Sweetnesss: hahahaha... youre so dumb. i dont care how fuckin smart you are. youre fuckin dumb.
Darth Sweetnesss: like a fucking child.
knightpire: great
Darth Sweetnesss: hahahahah.... youre seriously laughable.
knightpire: so laugh it up
knightpire: have a ball
Darth Sweetnesss: i am. have fun being a dickhead.
Granted, in my fury I was throwing some cruel words around, and I am sorry for that. But, this is how it ended. Judge it as you will. I'm sure many of you will find fault lies with me, and I'm sure, on some level, it does (I was pretty angry during the conversation). But, nevertheless, there it is. The end of another epoch in being friends with Sagien.
knightpire: you were never really my friend
Posted by wombat at October 18, 2005 01:58 AMits good to publicize how you broke down as you tried to handle the rejection.
Posted by: sagien at October 18, 2005 06:50 AM'Til I fuck him over? Again? He's the one who fucked *me* over, and I just stopped putting up with it.
Anyway, I'm not sure what the point of posting that was. You were the bigger man 'til you went and did that.
Posted by: kris at October 18, 2005 02:55 PMDarth Sweetnesss: better blow me off, because i ask you too much.
Darth Sweetnesss: no, wait... i dont ask you for anything.
Darth Sweetnesss: sorry if companionship is too much of a burden for you
knightpire: its very clever use of sarcasm jeff
Darth Sweetnesss: you are such a little girl. you have no idea how people really interact.
knightpire: none
Darth Sweetnesss: nope.
What's more likely... i wonder,,,, Sagien doesn't understand how people really interact? Or maybe it's that Wombat doesn't understand how people really interact. This seems like a rather old conversation to me. But, call me crazy- if friends can't call one another at all hours, asking them to come home, because we're outside of their apartment drunk, and insist on sleeping THERE, thereby forcing said friend to leave the company of more socially balanced friends just to come home and let us in... then what IS true friendship for? How needy is TOO needy? When are acceptable boundaries being crossed?
Well, this may come as a shock to most of you, but i agree with Wombat. It's perfectly acceptable to expect that our "friends" give us all of the attention we require all of the time, and accept us as we are regardless of how much we might take advantage of their patience. Fuck sagien and his newfound money. Money ruins everything and everyone. I think i'ma quit my job.
thanks for the inspiration.
Posted by: ninjamonkeygeek at October 18, 2005 03:01 PMSo kris, how did sagien screw you over? Not arguing with you, just trying to get my drama straight.
Posted by: Dino at October 18, 2005 03:34 PMi wrote a haiku inspired by this.
mijo loves jophrey
and jophrey loves his mijo
i don't have much sex